It's three and a half years since my last cigarette, after decades of smoking. Sometimes I cannot tell if I 'backslid' during that time, because I have had SO MANY dreams about smoking, and feeling regret, in the dream, that I weakened.

But as far as I can tell they are just dreams. But this demonstrates how deeply nicotine addiction was burned into my psyche and my life - that it can even blur the distinction between fantasy and reality.